Not a very good start of a week.
It suppose to be by right but it isnt. Everything has 2 sides and i am going to stand in the middle this time. Life is just like this, many things would just appear or disappear in a snap of finger. Many things may be unexpected. To face a matter calmly is a big challenge to me for sure.
To be fair eveyone will for sure side him or herself first before proceeding to the matter, or shotting others. Such things often happen even on myself, this time i shld learn to look at things in a different perspective. Maybe it would be fairer.
Wo Yi Ge Ren Ye Ke Yi Hen ok ah.
losing my grip. [12:40 AM]
My mood is recovering. Great. No more stones.
Ytd went vivo with LD pal. Not as big as i though. But still not bad la, looks like orchard. Much more better then Jurong Point, but how can I compare it with JP. Almost everyonewas late except me but i am still 1 of the earliest. But still late:P. Chatted with juan all the way frm my hus's bus stop till habour front. Coz this gal thinks tat bringing her daring along will very weird so neva go, and she say she was kind to call me becoz she knows the others will be late. True enough they was. So i went for my lunch first with chester coz hungry liao, wait for them come dont know how long oso. Had thai express which juan ji li recommend to me on the phone, it not express coz it not fast. Serve food wait until i wanna die liao. But the food quite edible.
Then at last joy and rod arrive followed by the others followed by shopping. Walk awhile they when noodle hut to have lunch, coz they hungry liao. The lemon tea is freaking sour, although only have onli 1/2 a slice of lemon. Still genting's one taste nicer and better, my fave. Thats maybe the onli thing which attracts me there. I left at 6+ i tink till to some curfew stuff, but i still reach home later then the time i am suppose to reach.
At the interchange, i saw her, my primary sch long time no see classmate. I was quite close with her during that time. She change alot.But still that good looking. Happy. Best thing, she was standing behind me for like 10-15 min before i actually notice her, listening to mp3 till to engross liao. Then said hello and talk abt the stuff you ought to talk abt when u meet your long lost friend. 5 yrs since i last see her.
Not going to think about it anymore.
losing my grip. [10:54 PM]
有一個男人為了參加第二天的小學同學會，特地上街買一條新長褲。
他回家穿上後，卻發覺長度多了十公分。
於是請求媽媽替他改。
媽媽說，身體不舒服，想早一點休息,今晚不想改。
於是改請求太太替他改。
太太說，還有許多家事要做，今晚沒有時間改。
於是改請求女兒替他改。
女兒說，今晚跟男朋友約好去跳舞，沒有時間改。
他想想，既然如此，明天穿舊的長褲去同學會也可以！
當天晚上，他媽媽心想：
「兒子平時對我很孝順，他開口要求總不好拒絕他。」
於是，起來替兒子改長褲，剪短了十公分。
他太太稍晚做完家事心想：
「老公平時很有耐心，今天他是不會縫針線才開口要求，總不好拒絕他。」於是替先生改長褲，剪短了十公分。
他女兒晚上回來：
「爸爸不阻止我去跳舞，實在是開明的老爸，今天實在應該替他修改長褲。」
於是替爸爸改長褲，剪短了十公分。
第二天早上，三個女人分別告訴男主人此事。
他一試長褲，已經變成吊腳褲了。
他的反應是......哈哈一笑，說：
「我一定要穿去給同學看，告訴他們，
我的媽媽、太太、和女兒對我多好。」
結果，老同學們一致稱讚他家庭經營成功。
他的媽媽、太太、和女兒也都很高興。
如果您是故事中的男人或女人，當下您會做何反應？
「哈哈一笑」抑或「破口大罵」？
人，面對外人時，總是可以表現得雍容大肚、心平氣和，
但面對自己最親近的家人，
卻往往一點小事就足以皺起眉頭，甚至出言相傷。
如果形容人類是一種
「出門高E.Q，回家低E.Q」的動物，我想一點兒也不誇張，
多拿出一點耐心與幽默感給家人吧！
否則您自己也不會快樂，不是嗎？
I totally agree to the above. It opens me up.
losing my grip. [12:10 AM]
This isnt the post i wanted to post actually, but after serious consideration, i decided not to make the situation even worse.
Nowadays really super fan, i oso not sure i fan what. I need to get certain things out of my mouth but i just cant bring myself to do it. Many think it is necessary to do so but i just cant bring myself to do so. If i were to do so, then history is going to happen again. I dun want it to happen again. Although this matter shouldnt bring such a big impact on me, but for some reasons it did.
Although i hate to carry responsiblity of certain matter but its my life, it seems that i cant run away from it. The expectation you want from me seems abit too high. I am really not someone who can carry it. Yes, to set examples, but so what as if they will follow. I am sick and tired of you telling me to set example for them. Its useless for god sake. After that incident, i realise i seems to have build a communication barrier between us. Its not going to get any better until i i manage to let go. I am trying very hard now.
I am not angry at all is just maybe abit disappointed?I swear i am neither angry nor feel any hate towards you.
Many things is going through my mind this couple of wks. Things really shouldnt be judge by its cover. Or maybe this 2 wks i am just feeling a bit more emotional? I myself oso dun know.
What curfew?What treating you as nothing?What not respecting you?What not settling example? All this rubbish i going to drive me crazy soon. Maybe its time i should find some courage to sit down and have a heart to heart talk with you. But for the moment i really still dont dare.But for sure i am going to prove you wrong right onto the floor. I will make you judge things fairly, let you know i can make it also. Not just the others. Just wait and see.
Kan Kai Dian.
losing my grip. [10:31 PM]
I am quite irritated this few days.
I will talk abt it when i come back frm genting on sun. I really very unhappy!!!
But there is something i mus really blast out. Coz i really cannot take it. I really start to find that your thoughts is really drifting apart . I dont know what are you thinking. I start to not understand you. I dont believe what i am seeing from you now.
It really hard to fully understand someone.
losing my grip. [12:13 AM]
ARGH!!! I freaking didnt slp for the whole night!!! My eyes is so tired but my mind is so awake. Really very tired!! Lesson is at 4. See the time now, 9am in a morning. I dont nd wake up so early de.
losing my grip. [9:06 AM]
Saturday the 14th of Oct 2006 wat an unlucky day for me. So freaking unlucky. I am going to blog abt it coz i think no one will be more "heng" then me. This morning which is like 3 am i was conferencing with joy, ting and kenny, then ting when to bathe and i think kenny doze off. So left me and joy talking, then suddenly is like got someone press then phone wanting to call out but it either 1 of us then both of us when to check around the hus to see if anyone press it but no one. All slping alr. This not only happen ones la, its at least 7-8 time. Scare to to my death, some more the sound i heard is got ppl pick up the fone then dial the no. but cannot call through then awhile later tat person put down the fone this continue....
Then second event, suddenly my hus's alarm when off as in the panel shows trouble which scare me then it wouldnt freaking stop ringing. I thout my hus kana break in all what make me dont dare to go and slp then i waited till 5 when my maid wake up and wwash clothes then i got the courage to climb up to my rm, but i neva la, coz i watching tv till 6 then i slp.
Last event, this one not tat serious la , but strike 4d oso neva so heng i saw destroyer at jp, some more i didnt notice is he call me de. But heck la, i shall not care now.
I cut my hair today its quite short compared to my previous length, but its still considered long hair ba. My sis ask why i she de to cut i say i oso not sure jus feel like cutting. Mon starting sch, hoilday is over time to get down to some serious work. Study hard!!!
New start.
losing my grip. [9:48 PM]
I am blogging for the sake of to past time coz i am freaking bored now. Jus came back frm temple got some " qian chew" thingy. When to take a look, and heng enough and sian enough i saw 3 person. The first person i saw i really is sian until got nthing to say. Second and third still ok la.
First person is the one we name destroyer i dun know his real name but i was jus msging ting tat i dun wanna meet him there. Then jus aft i send the msg out and ting reply me i saw him walking in.Then i dun wanna to look at his direction but he still see me. then smile to me then i was kind enough to smile back and walk away. But i still keep seeing him la so i decided to go some where else to take a look.
Then after i neva see destroyer i saw kenny and his bro. Nice enough me and ting was saying tat meeting kenny is better then meeting destroyer then i saw him. where got so qiao 1 me and ting talk abt ur then all oso appear. So heng. Mus got buy toto alr. Got 5 million. If strike then i will be rich alr. By tat time see anyone oso will soon yan abit coz rich alr. But now still super poor.
You know the world can see us in a way that’s different than who we are
losing my grip. [12:11 AM]
Name:Penny Quek
Bdae:17.Dec 1989
School:Ngee Ann Poly (HSN)
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