I am in a super super sian mode since school starts.
Nursing is really a course i would ask anyone who wants to join to
think twice. Its so freaking stressful.
Just alone presentations would kill you alr.
Week 2 this friday - ELAHA presentation ( haven even started to do ppt)
Week 3 Monday - NSL family planning on family planning
Week 3 Wednesday - NS 4 presentation ( haven start at all)
How crazy can school be? I dont know how to start doing. I wan to do
but i just cant force myself to go and start on it. Endless datelines to meet.
Who say studying for O lvls is stressful, meeting endless datelines and
projects is much more worse then anything. Seriously, i am still trying to
understand things i am studying this sems. It just too simliar which i am
so lost. Still got to crack my head on the clueless and stupid uncomplete
presentation topic.
Attachment schedule is out. Going to KKH this time. Its a O&G posting.
Which means i get to take care of pregnant mummys too be and new
born babies. I got seriously no confidence in handling babies, i keep got
the feeling that i will break their neck or fall them to death or even
drowning them when i am bathing them. LOL. Very serious right.
Cant master the technique on how to carry them properly.
My attachment first day falls on 17 Dec. Those who knows why i am sian
will know la, those who dont know then means neva look through my
blog properly. LOL!
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Sometimes its hard to understand human. I hope i am not over sensitive i
keep got some weird thinking. Hmmm.... dont know how to say maybe is
how people react to you when you ae talking to them. Like not answering
you. Or practically ignoring your questions. Like some people in my class.
I never freaking curse you or do anything to you. Why i ask you question
you must look at me then stare at me then look away and not answering
the question i ask you or acting not to hear anything. Dont tell me neva
hear, i called your name and ask you when i am standing next to you.
Unless you are deaf. Sometimes i just dont like the environment i am
studying in now.
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People changes as they grow, their mind set their thinking and their way
they want to lead their life. It different, just different from what it used
to be. Sometimes re-trying to understand some people is essential. I dont
know why i feel like that maybe that how the environment i am surviving
in seems to be. People i used to know is different. Argh... Abit of trying to
be emo now. Joy and juan maybe will know what this para means.
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Lastly, i have been thinking of my future this few weeks. Quite lost, dont
know which path to take. Alot of ways leading to different places is in front
of me. This time is serious decision. Walk wrong one drop into wrong hole
means cannot climb out alr. I talked to my mum abt it. She ask me to think
abt it. But she did give me so advise. Hmmm... it time to think about the
future. I need to plan. I need to know what i want in life.
Labels: Mood swing...
